so much more

i refer, if you must know, to the plethora of other places into which i pour words (and links and videos and music and so on {with some so forth too} and on) because, if you must know, there are a myriad of moments that span the spectrum of emotional splendor (and not just in the grass) and, in case you didn't know, the roller coaster that spins and zips and circles and rises and falls and zowadoos through every possible emotional experience life can possible offer (which is mostly infinite)is the point and the ultimate party of living (and someday i may have already or will, even, tell you all about it, or link or hint {which is close, but a different cigar} at where the full rainbow beyond the visible light frequencies {and kenneth} might be found, but for now, look around on your own)...

alone, the party is amazing in and of itself when you open your mind to the infinity of everything (life and the universe too) and shared, it is virtually unbelievable, which is why i long to share it all (and i mean all) once again... not too many people i've met can actually do that (any?) so i enjoy the amazing as i what?... oh yeah, wait (and laugh at myself and the wonders of this experience we appear to call life)... lol one never knows, do one (where the winds of chance might be blowing an answer or few, i mean, in case you wanted to know... sometimes the bullsugar is worth more than the all the rest combined (slowly, i turn... where the rest is stored, that is) and when you think the tweets are enough, good grief charlie brown, you've forgotten the art of tripping the lights (but that's a horse of a different... memories, like the corners of your mind?)...

so this is what it comes to (or goes down as) in the end (or at least for the moment)... and until the next moment (or your arrival), survival ensues...

party on, my hearties :)

narf :)

such a dork, aye?

who, me?... what me dorky?... yeah, i know i don't come around here nearly as much as i oughta but hey, there's a party going on in a million other places (what?... did i just give something away?... kinda like what i do most, if you know me at all, so laugh or puzzle at your own choice) and this place is like the anteroom or some such exit on the supernova highway of cyberlife where i slide for a breather in a moment of solitude between the celebrations and crowds so thank you for stopping by and if you understand (or want to) then feel free to call and pose your queries or just join in the festivities cuz that is what it is all about (hokey pokey and all... narf :)

yeah, narf :)

OHHHHH-KAY!

perhaps alvin's most famous quote, it sings forth from the deepest rafters as the music returned to the party this week (and oh, the dancing that ensued in the head and other locales, not to mention more than a dozen blogs as words will flow cuz music makes the gardens grow as those who know already know)... you must remember this, in your own way (as words are mine, yeah), at least, if you are to understand anything about me or the party of living...

and the magic of gigglefarts, no doubt :)

still going on

it doesn't have to make sense (usually it doesn't cuz sense requires some sort of serious thinking and who wants to do serious thinking at a party? {unless it's a serious thinking party, or a game party, or something like that} not any fleas i know), it doesn't have to be good, just feel good, that's all, feel good and everything is alright... and to feel good, you need the feel to be italicized, of course, or not, cuz it's up to you...

and even as the world is crumbling down around me, i can feel (wait, i can feel, yeah, that's it), even as i feel like the people i invested the most in are the first to abandon me, even as i remember traumas and cruelties and negativities of my most innocent moments from the start of this life, i still feel and that's all it takes for the party to start (even if it's sometimes a pity party, those can be fun too for a little while)...

it's still going on, and maybe that is the part of me that is hardest to understand or touch because, well, it doesn't require understanding either, no sense, no understanding, just being and feeling being... the experience of feeling being is the party, when will everybody get that?...

well, i'll be here when they do... you too... you are welcome, you know (you oughta know)... the moment you are feeling and know you are at the party, you will be here, wherever you are... and i will feel you and you will feel me and we will feel each other and everything (though not everything is italicized, cha)...

it's not magic or superhuman or special or anything anyone else can not do... i stress, i fret, i mourn, i feel sad and i feel pain, i know doubts and guilt and shame and fear and all the negative feelings sometimes... i just ignore it... it's inside, it's there, it's not gonna drop an anvil on my head or throw a rock at me no matter how much i might fear it will... it is that simple... ignore it and feel (gotta have the feeling, whatever feeling it is, push the fear aside enough to feel and you are at the party (or you could just stay and watch the show until your party comes along)...

it's in there... inside of you, i mean... you'll know someday if not today... the party is life and i'd love you to share it with me, but you don't have to... it goes on with or without us, but it's so much more fun with...

i'll save you a seat :)

party going on inside

all the self-pity
and the woe is me
is a wasted lazy
fantasy

but i still feel bad
and i still feel sad
and i still miss lovers
i once had
and i still have dreams
and i still wish for
someone to share
everything and more

but the bottom line
what i know is mine
is the party going on inside
when all else is dashed or denied
there's still a roller coaster ride
and i love it at the bottom line
i will not hide
cuz there's a party going on inside

the party of life

yeah, baby, even, this is where i'm gonna come when i am in touch with that part of me that knows life is a party and every moment is a blessing to experience (even the most crappiest ones of all cuz what else is there?... wait, don't answer that, i wanna be surprised :)