such a dork, aye?

who, me?... what me dorky?... yeah, i know i don't come around here nearly as much as i oughta but hey, there's a party going on in a million other places (what?... did i just give something away?... kinda like what i do most, if you know me at all, so laugh or puzzle at your own choice) and this place is like the anteroom or some such exit on the supernova highway of cyberlife where i slide for a breather in a moment of solitude between the celebrations and crowds so thank you for stopping by and if you understand (or want to) then feel free to call and pose your queries or just join in the festivities cuz that is what it is all about (hokey pokey and all... narf :)

yeah, narf :)

OHHHHH-KAY!

perhaps alvin's most famous quote, it sings forth from the deepest rafters as the music returned to the party this week (and oh, the dancing that ensued in the head and other locales, not to mention more than a dozen blogs as words will flow cuz music makes the gardens grow as those who know already know)... you must remember this, in your own way (as words are mine, yeah), at least, if you are to understand anything about me or the party of living...

and the magic of gigglefarts, no doubt :)

why don't i feel lonely anymore?

it used to be i wanted
to love and to be loved so much
i craved for sharing with someone,
i ached for the human touch
i do not know exactly when
or how or even why but i am very sure
at this precise moment in time
i wonder why don't i feel lonely anymore

when did i stop feeling sorry for myself
when did i stop depending on someone else
when did i remember what this life's about
when did i stop waiting to let myself out

i've always been inside
waiting for you
the one who would make
all my dreams come true
somehow i used to think
i could not be
completely happy
unless you were here with me

did you ever feel this way?
do you ever feel lonely?
do you understand anything?
about having a one and only
have you ever been in love?
have you ever found the source?
have you become one of those fools
so worried about staying the course

following someone somewhere
as if you were not enough
as if the first book you ever read
was three billy goats gruff

but do you know why the child laughs
that irresistable with eyes open so wide
it is because the child knows the truth
the party was always going on inside

(you don't know what you're missing)

:)

what the hoot

the magic continues (even though it went silence here for what seems to have been a winter type of time frame, at least the winter of my youth up north, but in any case, the calendar is springing into action, yes, it is spring and life is as wonderful as ever, even if love is not quite in the air, meaning the romantic kind, cuz love is most definitely in the air, everywhere... so what the hoot have i been doing loving every minute of it (that's what i've been doing, actually... loving every minute of it, yeah)...

yes, i am so loving every minute of it...

maybe it's the time of year

the music is the party going on all the time in me, even when all the world seems silent, the music is enjoying its home in me...

mind games forever

so much amazing mental games are going on in my head tonight, not unlike most nights in my head, but there is more excitement about the games tonight for some reason, as if sharing the games is closer than ever, but that is not based on any concrete evidence, so the ethereal muses must be playing tricks on me, which is one of the most fun amazing mental games of them all...

first of may

but you and i
our love will never die
and yes we'll cry
come first of may

tears belong at a party for many reasons... a wake, for instance, is a place for tears of farewell and missing the physical presence of someone who is no longer going to smile and laugh and be a human in this life outside of your mind and perhaps some artifacts, material memories, things you give meaning with your mind... and those same tears are the joy of the memories, the emotion that person inspired in the flesh and continues to inspire in your mind...

for me, the first of may brings such tears, of loss and death, and more, of beautiful memories and hope for more... i am throwing a party for a first of may feeling at this moment... thank goodness i still can after all this time... i thank the first inspiration, amy, for introducing me to these feelings and treasure the memories she and others have added to the first of may parties over the years...

the date on the calendar does not matter, for this feeling is timeless... perhaps it is because the first of december is approaching, or perhaps it is because any moment can be a first of may moment because, after all, it is all in the mind...