how much i believe this to be true

cuz i want to tell the world
how happy i am to be alive
i want you all to know
we do so much more than merely survive
and it may sound cliché to say
how much life means to me
but if you only knew what i’ve been through
you would understand how i see

and i want to tell the world
how wonderful it feels to breathe
i wish you all could know
the experience of learning to seethe
with hopeful inspiration
found in each moment, now
if you only opened your heart and mind
you would know that you always knew how

the moment you opened your eyes
the world was amazing to you
everything was such a surprise
every step was learning something new
and that perspective is still there
like a rainbow inside of you
if you’d only set yourself free
there is no limit to what you can do

and i want to tell the world
how much i believe this to be true
but most of all i want to tell the world
how much i love you

first of may

but you and i
our love will never die
and yes we'll cry
come first of may

tears belong at a party for many reasons... a wake, for instance, is a place for tears of farewell and missing the physical presence of someone who is no longer going to smile and laugh and be a human in this life outside of your mind and perhaps some artifacts, material memories, things you give meaning with your mind... and those same tears are the joy of the memories, the emotion that person inspired in the flesh and continues to inspire in your mind...

for me, the first of may brings such tears, of loss and death, and more, of beautiful memories and hope for more... i am throwing a party for a first of may feeling at this moment... thank goodness i still can after all this time... i thank the first inspiration, amy, for introducing me to these feelings and treasure the memories she and others have added to the first of may parties over the years...

the date on the calendar does not matter, for this feeling is timeless... perhaps it is because the first of december is approaching, or perhaps it is because any moment can be a first of may moment because, after all, it is all in the mind...